如果能回到过去

2012年的七夕 It's the first time ever you couldn't fix my problem, and it's the first time ever I start to have issues with our relationship. It is so different. I just feel like from this point forward, our relationship is going to start to go downward. If things don't get better within this year, I don't think I can take this anymore. I can have this experience for the next five years. I am not that strong after all. It is very different from the time I lost my job, because that is something I can do to fix. I don't know how to believe we will have a future. I dont know how...My response to our conversation may still be the same, but how I feel is totally different from inside. I used to feel so happy when I talk to you on the phone, but not anytime after this, I feel so bitter and feel like crying whenever I think about this...How can I turn back to who I am before. I know you love me, and it is not like I want to separate, but I dont know what to do to change how I feel...I think this time, only time can heal the wounds, and I dont know how long it will take...seriously, i dont know